Solitude

Solitude left a lot to be desired this week. I kept wanting the quiet. Wanting to be pulled away by God and just separate myself from the rest of life. It was difficult to do this. All week I've been working towards finishing my classes and other homework. There was plenty to do all week. Also with a couple things growing in my mind, just made it harder.

Solitude is really just a state of mind. Being able to breakaway from other people in order to listen to God is solitude's true purpose. Sometimes we give so much of our lives to other people, we really don't have anything to give to God. We exhaust ourselves spiritually by sharing ourselves with others. We forget what is really important and lose our true focus.

This week was all about purpose. Thinking about and putting time and energy into what is really important, is what I focused on this week. There was a lot to be anxious about outside of my studies and my work. My life has gotten really busy really fast. Some crazy somewhat miraculous things has happened. It has been weighing on my mind so much.

So, instead of worrying or dwelling on these things I focused on what God wants me to do. In my last post I talked about how things had to be given to God. That was a part of submission. Solitude was carrying through with that submission. Whenever I grew weary, I just praised and prayed to God. It was tough but it was very spiritually filling.

Solitude is about denying yourself and taking up what God wants in your life. You can find freedom in taking away your selfish nature and taking on God's will, God's desires. It's sort of a matter of perspective. If you look at the world through your own ambition you won't get far and your will, will be drained from you. God fills you spiritually when you rely on his eyes to interpret the things you see.

Practice solitude, because it is important. Without it you won't understand what is really going on. You can't fully realize the truth until you step back and consider what God knows.